Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Winter Blues

"Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; For I shall yet praise Him, the help of my countenance and my God." Psalm 42:11

It is no secret that I dislike January. Every year I feel restless & start to question everything. I get cabin-fever, Vitamin D deficient missing the sunshine, discontent longing for spring and just generally BLUE.

Yesterday was no exception. I feel like I woke on the wrong side of the bed and could not find a way to make the day better. I was an impatient parent, a grumpy wife and stayed sour within my head all day long. I felt cooped up, sad, lonely, bored, miserable.  I'm longing for Spring in the south and dreading the long cold winter of the north.

I know I get this way every January. Its when we think we need to make new life plans, or start talking about travelling to some place warm. We spend a lot of time evaluating things, wondering why we are where we are in all aspects of life.

I woke this morning praying that today would be a better day. I'm not feeling it yet. I'm playing worship music over & over in hopes to inspire an attitude change. I'm paging through the Psalms, hoping to read that one verse that will transform my heart. There are many uplifting verses in Psalms, I see them, I read them... but today I do not feel them. I continue to read, to pray, to meditate... I know that He is right beside me, despite my mood, probably with His arms around me speaking comfort into my deaf ears.

Open my ears, Lord, that I may receive your comfort. Change my heart that I may receive Your joy and peace.


  1. Wish I could hug the stuffin out of you, bundle you up and take you for something hot, frothy and chocolate-y. Thats what we would do if you were here.

    I get Vit D deficient too - I have a little trick for that one, I leave Vit D chewables all over the place, on the table, counters, coffee tables, beside the bed - so I can't forget.

    Poor Grumpy Girl. I pray you will have better days as January moves along.


  2. Hi Becky! i found you through Mrs. Miles' blog as she welcomes us both back, in her latest post, so i thought i would come visit you. i sure know those blues and will pray for you, too. maybe a little calming would help change your mood. i know it sounds crazy but take some quiet time and breath steadily...a form of meditation that really helps...i don't know if it clears the mind, body, soul or all of them. probably has something to do with getting more oxygen in the system, i dunno, just thought it might help. HUGS! in hopes you feel better soon.