Thursday, July 08, 2010

Chaos



Chaos! It's the only word I can think of to describe my mind right now. I have so many thoughts, ideas, questions and plans competing to be the forefront of my brain that I can't focus on any of them.

I have so many things that I want to do vs need to be done that I can't choose where to start and none of them are getting done. I need to get some invoicing done, but to do that I have to tidy the office. So I put away some papers and the coffee mugs and start the dishwasher. Then I throw a load of towels in the laundry and hang the clean ones outside to dry. I clean up toys outside on the grass and maybe fill up the tiny pool. I go back in and remember that I wanted to do invoicing but then it's time to start lunch...

Lunch makes me sit at the table where my laptop sits and I peruse writing and photograph sites, wishing I had more time for taking pix and writing articles.

I then peruse the outdoor adventure magazine that I wish I had time to write an article for, and then think longingly about camping, hiking or getting my kayak out on the water. But with an active toddler those things are on the backburner today.

Which then leads my thoughts to having baby #2 and wondering if or when God might grant us that blessing (as I've been having trouble staying pregnant) Then my thoughts lead to adoption and my heart for an African child, wondering if that could be Gods will for us. Thinking of Africa then moves my thoughts to missions and wondering if that might be our calling one day and perhaps that's why our house hasn't sold yet.

And so the swirling circle in my mind carries on... and I still haven't got any invoicing done!


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3 comments:

  1. Hi Becky,
    Why so much chaos? Perhaps you need some sanctuary and some down time. You will probably get far more done after you take a break and settle the mind. In other words, take time and smell the flowers....and in your case just enjoy the beautiful nature around you and it will calm your soul. At least that is what squirrels would do.

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  2. "To be or not to be..."
    This is eternal Question...
    Nothing to Worry..Everybody is facing this Question in Life sometimes..
    With all Best Regards..

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  3. It sounds like you have much to think about dear friend. When my mind starts to swirl like that, and at times it does, it makes me think of a verse I found in my Bible reading last year. It really struck me about the idea of entering God's rest. How can we really rest when so much is going on? But we can enter into God's rest just like Isaiah 30:15 says, "For thus saith the Lord GOD, the Holy One of Israel; In returning and rest shall ye be saved; in quietness and in confidence shall be your strength: and ye would not."

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