"The heart knows its own bitterness, and a stranger does not share its joy" ~Proverbs 14:10
Nobody really wants to hear somebody else complain. And yet when we have some sort of ailment, some sort of infirmity or something we find unfair, why is that we need to proclaim it to everyone & anyone who will listen.
In church on Sunday, the message revolved around the man who lay cripple at the pool of Bethesda for 38 years waiting to step into its healing water. The pastor discussed how when we have an ailment or problem, whether physical mental or spiritual that it can consume us & define who we are, so much that it may be harder to not have this infirmity, this bitterness because, what would we be without it?
I really had to take a look inside myself during this message and so this verse really stood out at me today. I do harbour bitterness in my heart, and I like to revisit it, have a pity-party with it now & then. And it feels good to share it with others to get that "i feel sorry for you" reaction. I like the angry feelings that I can stir up with it & allow myself some sorrow. What am I holding on to it for? Why do I continue to revisit it? And why can't I let it go? I have to want to let it go first. That's something that will require some looking deeper inside myself & some faith to let go.