"The beginning of strife is like the releasing of water; therefore stop contention before a quarrel starts." Proverbs 17:14
When tension & stress builds up inside you, its almost like pressure to release something. I have been finding 'outlets' these past few weeks of burning off the energy to release the stress from the day. A good hard hike up a hill, a long walk with a friend, or a kayak on a glassy lake. These have all helped me release the tensions building up inside.
This week was tenser than ever for the first few days that it was hard to even be at work. But today, there was this sort of calm & the atmosphere wasn't so static. I knew today was the day to talk to my boss. I wasn't tense, I wasn't angry & I wasn't stressed, so I was taking advantage of my current situation to have a talk with him when I knew these emotions wouldn't get in the way. I didn't want a quarrel, I didn't want to 'release' my emotions in the heat of a moment so I figured it had to be done when all was well.
Details aside, the meeting went very well & fortunately my boss is also a bit of a friend & was very understanding of my need for a change & my need to seek some sort of happiness in a job that I was no longer finding there! 3 weeks notice is what I have given them. Its done! And the relief I feel in this decision, the fact that my boss made it so easy for me to talk to him about it and that he agreed with my choice (albeit reluctant to have me go) makes me feel like I've made the right decision.
I don't know what is next but I am open now for God's leading to that something new! Barb, mom, Janine & the rest of you who were praying specifically for me today, I thank you so much for I felt comfort in your prayers! As nervous as I was for the meeting, I was not doubting in the choice! So it has been made! Now I'm at the foot of a brand new mountain...and I'm eager to see where the path leads and what's on the other side!